Not Such a Good Day

OK...I admit it. I'm not having a good day today. Why do I feel guilty? Why do I feel like I'll never be the same again...I mean, I lost my mom only 9 month ago. It still feels so real - so permanent. I can't explain it. Every night I sit here in my house and cry - missing her beyond words. I think of all the things she's missing out on. But most of all, I really think about all the things my son, Christopher, and nephew, Jake, are missing out on with their Grandma...I'm sorry all - I really hate this...I really miss my mom...